I’ve come a long way in two years. It’s been two years since I properly accepted who I was as a gay man. Truthfully I’ve been slowly accepting it and coming to terms with who I am for years. But I was finally ready to shout it from the rooftops yesterday figuratively speaking.
Yesterday as I was leaving the building someone who I have never seen before in my life asked me if I had plans for the weekend… and I answered, I said “Yes actually I’m going to big gay day“. The words may not seem that earth-shattering, but to me they were huge. The words just slipped out without me even thinking about them. I was quietly stunned that they had come out of my mouth, without fear of any kind of negative reaction.
Two years ago I was desperately clinging to being bi, because in my mind that was better than being completely gay. I couldn’t even say the words to some of my closest friends, let alone a stranger in an elevator.
Its proof of how far I’ve come to be so comfortable with myself and my sexuality to announce it to strangers. I’m going to think of this as a personal milestone in my journey. It’s taken me a long time to get here but I’m happier than I’ve ever been.
My coming out wasn’t easy, when you build something up in your head and repress so much of yourself for so long, the cracks begin to show. It was a process and it was a disjointed one. But I love that I’m at the stage where I can say it and I can blog about it.
This is who I am, a gay man and that’s ok. Actually it’s great. I am who I am and who I am is super gay.